As a young child, if you get told, whether directly or subtly, that expressing who you are in a certain way is wrong, what message is that communicating to you? And, furthermore, what behaviors do you then adopt in order to self-correct?
It’s hard to accept that life is as it is meant to be when everything is hard. It takes a trust in the universe that is often beyond our strength. But there is always an uphill to get to the view at the top and there is always a winter before the magic of spring. In the cycles of your life, perhaps you are exactly where you are meant to be.
I’ve come to perceive glimmers of a belief that when these blue days arrive it is my heart, or my soul, or very being telling me that I need to feel deeply. When our heart is feeling heavy; when we have asked it to hold too much for too long, we have to honor its need to release that which it can no longer keep ahold of.